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WARNING. WORD VOMIT BECAUSE I AM STRESSED AND TIRED.

It’s 5 fucking AM.
Damn, how nostalgic. Used to always be up at this time for homework back in high school. That was only last year! Now I’m working full time while juggling harsh college courses and it makes me so jealous of the old high school workload. ONLY thing I’m actually missing, aside from friends. I love college! I have so much free time and freedom and I’m in an amazing city. Only thing I would change is if my partner in life can be here with me. February last year was such a shitter for me so I’m glad this year’s has been eventful. Found work, bought my very own sewing machine, exercising and eating healthy, doing (some) online classes and keeping my grades high (I hope). Gah. Thank goodness I have tumblr to help me as a stress-diary. I’m also glad I have the support of friends in recent troubles. :’) OH! I also got my pink, green, and purple contacts in the mail so I shall have those on hand. I just wish I could find my blue and silver ones!!! Dx Worked 35 hours in the last 4 days so my ankles are at the point where I can barely walk… AND I have an 8AM class in a few hours. Life just never gets easier. I’m so strung up lately, and I’m going to fall behind in my sculpture class if I don’t get my shit together tomorrow. I was planning on staying after class on Thursday to finish the homework assignment the moment it’s assigned but I have a meeting with my managers that day. FUCK. Going to beg them to let me skip it x___x Parents will kill me if I don’t maintain freakishly high grades. Turns out, my figure drawing class teacher has not given an A in like, 5 years or some shit so I’m feeling preeetty hopeless about that class. :’( What else is on my fucking mind. I miss my mommy and daddy. I miss Philippe, my friends, and most of all, Thomas. I still can’t shake my nightmare streak but lately I’ve been popping ibuprofen in order to sleep away the leg pains and get decent rest. If it wasn’t for the fact that they pay me 10 dollars an hour and that Thomas and I basically got all our savings stolen, I would not be trying so fucking hard to keep this ridiculous schedule. AN ANIMATION MAJOR? WITH A FULL TIME JOB? THAT IS AS RARE AS FINDING A DINOSAUR. My peers are quite disappointed in my choice, since there are simply not enough hours in the fucking day to pass my classes AND maintain work. Hating life. Typing this up as my animation in AfterFX renders. Then I have to work on Maya for the next 2 hours. Peace out my friends. Let us hope I survive another day.

VENTING FELT GOOD. SORRY FOR WORD VOMIT.